what I want to write is about her

what I want to write is about her >
boy..
that's my name..
at least..my family has called me like this since i was born,,even it has no related to my real name..[read : Pradipta Brahmandia]

here i'm trying to dig my ability to write,even i don't know what should i write and what i want to write..
in the middle of the night, and in the pouring rain, cold weather..oh please,,it's Bekasi..coldest the weather, still cold in Puncak,,hehehehe
[becoming want to back to Puncak]


well,,back to what i want to write..
now,, i'm with my lovely laptop that always accompany me all the time..the most loyal friend after my lovely girl, connected to internet, check news feed from my friend in facebook, check email in my yahoo mail..and logging in blogger..yeah it's where i write on..don't forget,,a box of milk, cookies,,make me enjoy writing,,


ok..not travelling around,,and keep on the right track,,focus to what i want to write,,
well..to shorten the time
what i want to write is what my heart wants to say
my heart beat like a drum when i know the fact is not going with my wants[that's called problem]
time showed 9:06 PM now..hufff...i'm feeling sleepy..but my fingers are still excited to dance on this keyboard..
and my eyes..still want to stare at monitor..
tomorrow..i will get my eye-bag..heee :)

only her,,love,,and me..

hmmm...maybe it's the fit title for my passage
for me..living without my love, it feels like The BumbleBees living without their Honey
[uuhhh...so sweet]
never know..and unpredictable what will she do to make it
for me..she's everything..precious and priceless
she always know what i want..
but i'm sorry babe,,i always make you disapointed to me, that's why you always stick around to another guy,,heee
trying to find a guy who deserves you
but i'm still the best and deserve you,,[Narcis Mode:ON]

you are kind of hard candy with a surprise center for me
everyday,,your mood is turn up and down
and i must think hard and carefully to make you on again..
more days passed..
i knew,,she still hate me..she always becomes someone who never recognize me
ignoring me with her unreply-overwhelmed-message from me to her cellphone
"sorry..i've been busy"
that's all she said
and i'm starting worry about her
worrying she find another guy or re-connected to someone who has steal her from me..
i'm afraid..

but i will always stand..until my last stand for you
maybe this passage should be titled "my saddest-love story"
heee
but i will continue it
i like writing about my dream girl..
only love for you..and me..